When negativity hits the brain, it used to be a big snowball effect. One bad thought, then suddenly more would join the downhill roll, the ball getting enormous and sometimes paralyzing me that the head hurt because suddenly all that filled my brain was what was wrong with me, where I worried I could fail my loved ones, what could all go wrong for me and the world. I can be very unkind to myself despite I am a generally a energetic smiley beast. Lately, this is how I deal with any negative pats on the head:
Myself: Grab it!!! Grab it from her, she's the one who has it this time.
Me: Scared! So friggin scared!! *has a snowball and keeps adding more snow* this is all that could happen. The world is going to end. We are all doomed. Failure!!!
I: Give it over. Right now.
Me: But look at it. Look what can happen! Look at the bad that has happened. It will all happen again I tell you.
Myself: *pulls out sledgehammer* Hand her the snowball now small fry!
Me: Oh... okay!
Myself: *passes teddy bear* Hug that instead and think of sunshine, lollipops, rainbows...
Me: And uniiiicorns?
Myself: Yes. *meanwhile dreams of men she thinks is sexy in swimsuits* Uniiiicorns.
I: *tosses snowball in a bonfire of one thousand degrees Celsius* never come back. You are not welcome here. *grabs sledgehammer and points it at Myself* Same for you, no snowballs.
Myself: Uniiiiiicorns.
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