Me: Serendipity. Coincidence. A sign that it all means something? Something... what's that... ?something...
I: Stop! It hurts! Hurts my brain! Causes emotional stirrings that confuse the soul.
Me: Just can't let it go. It must mean something.
I: I think it is all in our heads. It doesn't mean anything.
Myself: Okay! Playing devil's advocate, what if it did? How would that make you feel?
I: Terrified! I don't want it to mean anything.
Myself: You play things too safe. Further to that, if it means something, God, the Universe, whatever is out there, may not give you a choice.
I:.... I don't like this conversation...
Me: It would be fun to get to know someone new. Someone with potential for a new friendship.
I: What if they want more than just friendly kinship and meeting of minds and general conversation? If there is a face-to-face interaction in the future that is. What if this is where somebody wants something more, if indeed, they are looking to bond over coffee?
Myself: You are worrying over something that has not happened. May never happen. You are making a big deal of something that may never come to pass, ever!!! But let's pretend a meeting of minds, conversation, kinship comes to fruition, so what? GO WITH THE FLOW! We like change, and discomfort to overcome has always had great results, facing things head on is what we normally do. In the department of matters of the heart -in this case, potential in matters of love- you run and hide your head in the sand.
Me: *been nodding the whole time* Like all other parts of our tiny life, our little kingdom, we must be open and handle love in a similar fashion. We must not be too afraid.
Myself: Or we die alone and never experience love again. You can't always be afraid of it.
I: I hate you both.
Me/Myself: We still love you. Fraidy-cat!
